no
don't ask so much, knowing the answers are not what you care for.
don't behave like it has been in betrayal, you know nothing at all.
don't think of it this way, you have never been a good guesser.
don't avoid every tomorrow, there is nothing to be afraid of.
don't try to find out if i've been good, i have no will to be.
back then i had every bit of reason to be nice. to be that dutiful girl of yours. just waiting, it's delightful.
back then i had everything. at least everything i'd wanted. everything to keep me contented.
back then it lasted. though for a short while it seemed so wonderful.
back then i had no fear of seeing you. i know everything would be good, or better.
back then you tried to put touchscreen games into your pda just because you know i loved it.
it's gotten so tiring. i'm sorry.
OKAY. so tell me exactly how much dya wanna see things like this in my posts, "boyfriend has been a real sweetie today. he found me 2 icecream sticks and 7 bus tickets. you know they have, actually, extinct! how nice how nice how nice right?!"
cmon, gimme a place to vent those frustrations! back off, okay? i'm (sometimes) too shy to tell it to friends. i cannot tell it to boyfriend either cos he never listens. he goes deaf whenever i open my mouth anyway, unless it is to praise him. as if there is this auto-censor-device in his head or something.
i know it's been a nag, but hell it's been smothering from all sides. i'm not in the best of mood, most of the time. fun i have, oh pathetic, we'll just leave that out.
i have too much time on hand, too little happiness to relate to, too damn miserable to feel a lighter load.
but i guess he have been nice afterall. i feel it some times, though not much, or not thorough enough. i'm pretty much caught in between things i-don't-know-what. or i'm just way too demanding.
is it too late?
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